March 2012
2 posts
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Liars
We will never see them burn in hell. It makes me sad, that I don’t get to see them suffer. I don’t know why I have this bitter-y feeling in my heart, I have hate running through my system, and I really want to get my revenge, so bad I could actually kill someone with my bare hands. I know,…
BE RIGHT BACK| FIXING LIFE
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In a place where butterflies sing and Lions dance under the moonlight. I guess I’m leaving.
February 2012
8 posts
Because they sleep with a gun and keep an eye on...
Freedom
If only I could finally get my hands on you. I’d be the happiest kid in the whole world; if you ask me what I want—its freedom and nothing else. I’m 22, I will be turning 23 this summer, I may not look 22 but I am twenty-two turning on twenty-three soon. I’m old enough to drive a car, to apply make-up and wear clothes just because I want to look good but still I...
Prom Night Twenty Twelve
It felt pretty weird going through Prom again, for the third time to be exact. I can still vividly remember how bummed out, exciting, sappy and glamorous Prom was back in High School—those were indeed the days, way better than our College Prom last night (February 24, 2012) it seemed lifeless, flout and the food was entirely depressing plus the atmosphere was intensely warm making us sweat...
Go forth and be a Happy Clone
I will get better soon and I have a strong feeling that everything will eventually be alright.
Two years is enough. I am tired and this is ridiculous. Let’s go back to where I was before. I was the happiest girl in the world and it shall be like that again.
Sunday Mayhem
My world did not rock today.
I was very pleased when I checked my phone’s clock this morning. Finally! A completed 8 hours of sleep. It’s something I should be happy about; I turned in quite early than the usual time that I sack time. Leaving me looking like a depressing zombie with annoying zits popping every nano second in the morning. Sometimes I blame my life style but most of...
I was at it again, being melodramatic, insane and a little paranoid. Apologies for my very bitter rant that I posted four days ago. Over thinking ruins you and it should be something I should start working out. Nevertheless, my 020212 went well. I wish I could you cupcakes, instead of buying you a box, Sherlock. I was happy. Thank you.
02.02.12
Good morning! Well, I was hoping for a great morning, today wasn’t that exciting as I thought it would be. I feel so shallow, empty and some other emotions I can’t even—-whatever. This ought to be one of my “personal” sharing of sappy-slash-bitter sentiments (or could this be the first? :D) Shall we start by having a little run-through of the events...
January 2012
13 posts
Can I have a fruit cake?
Let’s start by saying how insane and frustrating my life is right now. I don’t wanna whine about it all over again and eventually take back what I just said and completely make you all believe that I am living a wonderful life because honey, apparently I am not since Day One. Frankly, I don’t wanna lie, it’s a Topsy-turvy kind of series, most likely there would be days...
Why do I suddenly feel like everyone is starting the Hate Day Parade? (not to name certain individuals—-our Professors!) They have finally succumbed to the H Queen’s nest of aversions and resentments. I strongly believe that words do fly so fast; how can the people of SG be so rude? (Although, I have just heard it through the grapevine; but if there is smoke, there is fire; so...
Taken by Twiggy.
These odd and dweeb looking toys (Rubix’s Cubes) are owned by my younger brother. He plans to buy all of the collection, he studies the techniques of every kind, shape and size and he can solve these badass babies in no longer than 4-6 minutes. He has this peculiar passion and being a dork myself, I am probably one of the first person who noticed or someone who can...
Old coffee dates? Nah—this one is pretty recent, although the word “old” makes it more quirky. I had coffee with Sanya late this afternoon (at my favorite spot in town!) I was basically starving and I didn’t go to school again; I’ve been having constant absences for the past few weeks. School has been boring me to tell you frankly and I feel sluggish in the...
I’m half-astounded and half-guilty that I can actually get this intense anger out in just one silly, petty reason. I’m thinking of getting to rehab or probably look for a psychiatrist that can help me resolve my issues. When I say intense it means the rage of fury coming right at you; I can’t seem to calm down and I can’t even control myself going cranky all of the sudden...
Sunset
If you were to choose sunrise over sunset, what would you choose and why? A dear friend of mine asked me during one of those unwinding old coffee dates. I answered her with delight and said “I’d choose sunset, because the breaking of the dawn does not mean it is the end of something beautiful but the beginning of something more spectacular.”
I wasn’t quite sure with what...
I’ve come to realized this and only this: Choose your friends wisely because you’ll never know the ones that will destroy your whole being.
I guess my over thinking of things has lead me to this general realization. My sudden mood swings helped me in some odd ways to know people that will stick with me in good times most especially in bad times like this. I’ve come to know what kind of...
Today is not my day—to sum it all up I had an aggravating day. Beyond doubt my morning was twice as ill-fated then the rest of the time I had earlier. The usual, I woke up as early as 5 o’clock in the morning to prepare for my brother’s breakfast and his uniform for school. (He is a spoiled brat and basically he knows nothing in ironing clothes to preparing his own...
“It was not just an earthquake.” There was a 5.9 magnitude earthquake (someone just told me, not so sure with this information though) the region experienced last night around 8:30 or was it 9pm? I don’t know, I’m uncertain but I’m pretty sure the whole house was wobbling. I was in my estranged father’s bedroom getting into my pambahay clothes when my brother...
Why is the Internet Connection slow? Is it because...
Excuse my french, pardon my language. I am just extremely irritated with our Internet Subscriber coupled with my slow laptop. Fuck my life! Why now when I need to upload the video blog I made earlier this morning, intended for Meinofel’s eyes only though. I woke up late this morning (due to my obsessive aptness of finding the best of the best soothing music ever recorded from the most...
TAKE ME TO COACHELLA
I don’t care if it rains hardcore all throughout the day and night as long as I’m safe in my room, curled up under my sheets, get an earful of the best “feel good music” playing ardently on my Gramophone record that soothes me to the very core; as I leaf through some of the pages of my favorite book, lost in thought, my mind wanders somewhere else. I gather up my innermost thoughts and take a sip...
I’m setting up goals this year and the years that follow. I can’t share it to you right now because I’m still weighing things down before I finalize everything and give my last decision. I’ll probably be making the hardest decisions and I’ll be taking risks. Lots of them. I can’t stay here forever, I can’t live like this. This is not life, this is...
December 2011
6 posts
The Fading Christmas Spirit
At one point during the weekend; i felt like my Christmas spirit was losing its grip. It was constantly fluctuating back and forth between “I’m so glad it’s Christmas! The most wonderful time of the year is here again!” and “Oh my God! Why is it so boring and less festive? Is it just me?” I admit, I have no mother to bake us pastries and goodies on Christmas...
Fuck Society!
Where do I begin? Okay, since this is my blog. Let’s start with me, I shall set myself as an example. I am not a walking barbie doll; my facial structure does not coexist with Anne Curtis, my skin color is not as fairer and as flawless like Georgina Wilson’s skin, I have a slightly big nose, my pores are so visible and I get pimples that won’t come off no matter what I do, my...
Hi.
It has been indeed a while since my last update. I haven’t been really busy, I was not interested to blog about anything at that moment or any moment in the past. I felt like my life has angled in an empty path and how desperate I am to have a planner in order to have everything that will happen in 2012 straighten out. Thanks to Diane’s sister, I was inspired to have a planner,...
“You’d better be offended because this one is for you. Seriously? making...”
– ahleks
“I don’t know who to trust anymore; your friends who thinks you’re...”
– just a thought.
Sigh of relief
I feel the sense of freedom overpowering me. It feels good to be a free child and my blog should hear about this. School’s been an ass for the last 6 months. It was difficult to attend classes knowing you will not gain any knowledge because all your instructor is blabbing about in class is Singapore and some of his random spectacles as an outstanding student and shit. I wanted to quit...
November 2011
4 posts
It’s fun and extremely exciting getting questions in your formspring account. I had a bunch of those nosey questions and a bunch of those formspring accounts that I made because I kept on forgetting my password and momentarily I would deactivate my account because of extreme boredom answering questions from a spammer I follow or from anyone who has a link to my formspring account. Just recently,...
Some people value their fathers, some need their fathers, some need to get away from their fathers, some fathers are working, some are gone, some are dead, some people want a father while others don’t need their fathers. Ever felt like you need to deal with all the drama that is contriving in your life as a 22 year old and simultaneously here comes a “problem” dad that you...
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Two days ago I received a text message from an unknown number but I was pretty certain it was one of my classmates in college. It was a group message, although it was addressed to me and one of my classmate, she asked me to come up with an Introduction; I didn’t understand what she was trying to say because her text message was lacking with details. Later on, I just found out that she...
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I think my life will be utterly complete if I get to learn and eventually speak in French and Latin. I tried understanding the basic words in French, it mostly consist of the simple Greetings and numbers. My cousin, being the only one who can speak and write in French (he studied in Ireland and the subject he preferred was French) was refusing to teach me everything I need to know in learning...